Friday, August 07, 2009

Body Copy

Read Body Copy by Michael Craven. Good writer. Or my kind of Mystery writer. Did not fill the story with a lot of side stories.

A quote: "That would be exposing a scar, a scar she didn't make, but someone else did. No control."

I think all our mental scars come from someone else wounding us. He took a knife and stabbed you. Have the scar the rest of your life. Lost control over unblemished skin. Or in this case, mind. The quote is taken out of context. The woman, he thought, would not admit to her husband's infidelity, if there had been any, even if she knew about it. Would not want the world to know her perfect marriage was less than ideal, exposing her scar.

The quote caught my eye because once someone takes away your freedom to choose, your control, you are left wondering, what if? Would I still have become homeless if he had not willfully attacked me? A molested child is wounded early in life at a time they are not given much control over their destiny. Most of my homeless peers do have scars caused by abuse. Scars put there by someone else's behavior, behavior over which they had no control.

1 comment:

Unknown said...

Mary,

I apologize if this is not the best way to write but I could not find any email links around here. I've been browsing through your blog a little late I know I realize it's been around for quite some time now, but it has some of the most helpful information I have found yet and I have googled for hours on end! I needed to read about others who have gone through homelessness because when you have so little left these connections help the most. I'm 19 and I totaled my car in january but did not get the insurance check because the insurance was not primarly in my name I spent all I had on a new car that just happened to not work so well. I was out of work because of multiple radial fractures in both arms full arm casts oh those sucked! I managed to get on temporary disability which I did not realize was going to be half my paycheck practically (I was a former hotel front desk receptionist when this happened). Needless to say I could not keep myself housed so I packed everything in my car and have been putting off help until now, slowly I started selling my possesions, my computer, cameras, entertainment devices etc I felt with these material things I just wasn't poor enough! I let my pride take over my common sense. I have somewhat shelter because of my car so I realize this must be easier the hardest thing I have to say is cleaning up especially being a young female I had quite the morning routine. Now that I have sold everything down to the radio in my car I feel like I'm finally down and out enough to use services provided. I take responsibility for putting myself in this situation, money management is so difficult when most of your choices just aren't that great. Anyways I'm in the long beach area and I'm going to use all your links to their extent, your blog and all the information enclosed has helped me chin up while I'm on this road, thank you.

Regards,



Katie